So I know, you've seen an announcement on twitter, from my feed that I & others have tried to get me to reconsider, but no one can truly understand at this point , in time. To make music, is to live for me, no one can see how hard I work, and dedicated I am, and how my crafting is done. Because I'm awfully to myself, and I'm trying to work to become a people person to extend myself to my fans and supporters. But at a certain extention it really gets old, especially with all the unneccesary non-sense that has occured in my life. I'm flat out tired..... And if I'm not making/writing music to be honest I don't want to live... Conflict #1 My Mom.. Not getting into the custody and all that.. #2 My Dad, I do not feel confident and secure with sharing my music details with him, it's because I mostly channel all of my problems, hate, & what not in my music. And I'm not really wanting him to try to make my craft, I mean suggestions are nice but uhhh. #3 No Deal, which zooms back to #2 If I have no legal guardian to sign I'm like dead(ear) weight to the music world. And I'm trying to conformize(typo) but I don't see that happening in any near future... I feel alone, and mind shaking. Life is really un-genuine and hell for me right now. And plus iTunes is tripping with my new single click directly to this link - http://itun.es/iFb359 . Til I can update my next blog - I'm deliberately working on my new mixtape "Trying To Make An Effort".
- HiTz
Living Positive, when possible
