8:54 A.M. 12|04|10
Now playing J. Cole - "Before I'm Gone"
I haven't had eye rest since 6 A.M. Yesterday( I don't sleep) ...
So honestly, I feel like this isn't right for me, living here and the situation I'm in right now... With this new living predicament, which is very abnormal for a teen my age... And I'm getting really tired and slowly ticking for destruction, especially with my Dad, it's like the feeling when I started drifting away from my mother... It's like how I used to stay over here for to long in the Summer, and we started colliding like the small things. Like I literally almost went off over the fact that he's on my Mac Book each and every opportunity, when I'm not on it. This is really en raging for me like because he has a computer, 2 actually a desktop and laptop. But then again, I think I used to be on his laptop like that sorta. But then it's like NO, this is my everything(virtually) all my data is stored on this computer. And it's really frustrating to see him literally sitting on FaceBook for hours. And the finger prints he leaves and he's not careful with it, then he says... Such an such about his. But each and every time I used to clean that laptop. And my music tons of it is all stored on there like 50-60 songs, and if something were to happen to it...... But anyways it's like this temptation I need to get out of this life. I need to leave TX, like he doesn't understand. I need to pursue my career in a city, better than here. And I need to get a manager like now... Hopefully I can move in with... I'm at a standstill in life, and I'm trying to maneuver out of it quick. The picture isn't always as it appears. With the fast life, there's many drowsy things along with it.
